siguro nga there are some things that are just not meant to be. kaya lang, when do you know when to stop hoping and when to start moving on? sometimes kasi you just can't help but keep on holding on to that something even though you know you're bound to lose your grip. and no matter how many times you tell yourself to move on, you just can't because you don't want to let go of that feeling - that feeling of feeling so strongly for someone despite the fact that nothing can ever transpire between you two.

bittersweet. yes, that's the word for this whole thing. you get your share of kilig moments yet you know hanggang dun lang yun. not that it's a bad thing, but the fact that you like this person so much makes you wish for something more, something which you know (at least you THINK you know) can never happen.

then why not give up? well, it's neither unrequited love nor is it a mutual thing - you just don't know where you stand. you don't know whether to tell him about how you feel or just wait for him to finally realize that you love him. i think that's even more frustrating than unrequited love. at least with the latter, you know where you stand... you're one hundred and ten percent sure there's not a chance in this world that anything's ever gonna happen between you two. and i believe knowledge of that fact makes it easier for one to move on... or at least try to. but not knowing where you stand? that's a different story, especially if you're the girl. you can't just go about telling the guy you like that yes, you like him. what do you do? nothing. you just sit (prettily) and wait for him. you have to endure seeing him with other girls because after all, he's not yours. you have to put up with his ka-kulitan and use all your willpower to stop yourself from blurting out what you feel for him. so, so frustrating, especially when you have that feeling that the possibility of being with him, no matter how remote, is not entirely impossible.

but yeah, life's like that. tough luck for us girls (in that aspect only). sometimes you end up cursing him for being so sweet and so kind to you. it makes you keep on hoping that something just might happen even though you have been reminded many times that at the moment, it's just not possible.

yet still, you hold on. you still keep on hoping to God that the stupid guy you love will finally, finally realize that somene loves him, has been loving him and will always love him (read: YOU). but then you can't force him to love you if he doesn't want to, right? still, your stubborn little self refuses to budge. but then you start thinking... holding on means passing up the chance of being happy with someone else. you can't watch your whole life pass you by for one person who just couldn't get the fact that YOU LOVE HIM. you just have to move on.

at times like these, a gallon of arce dairy strawberry ice cream comes in handy and then somehow, life's not so bad after all. :D